I get home from work
The empty apartment screams loneliness
Shattered memories decay and flutter around me
My cell rings..
I don't answer.I never answer
A voice mail is left
"Hey Jonny.Dude where you been! Call me man"
But i just can't
Energy just doesn't seem to flow in me anymore
Losing too much weight and haven't shaved in days
Is this the result of a broken soul
Or have i simply just stopped caring
I always remember the quote vince told me when he noticed my unusual change

"Don't allow stress to destroy your life.Stress is an expression of fear.Fear and faith are exact opposites and you cannot operate in both at the same time"
  
I know i have put happiness aside
Believe me when i say it's the most unfortunate procrastination
To put happiness aside.It ends up destroying you more than you thought
But one cannot help to be distorted by love
Such a weakness that haunts me
I could still hear the voices
Laughter and cries
My head turns and turns
I could hear her but i can't see her

Our love
Our dreams
Our arguments
Our differences

How we used to make love
How i would drink her like fine wine
Sweat poured full of adrenaline
We devour ourselves like a pack of hungry wolfs
The bites and scratches permanent scars
All but bitter memories
And left with this loneliness

That's what i do
Everyday and hour that passes
Just sleeping or waiting
It's laughable
It might be just a joke for you
Or just get a kick of this
But
That's what i do everyday..